Pretense

Finally next saturday is the last day of intership in Shanghai. 4 days of holidays before my flight on thurs, 10.10am. Will be reaching sg at 3.30pm. I guess I will very much miss my working colleagues here. I don't know why. But somehow I see how sincere the both of them (my two closest working colleagues other than sean) treat us. We are just like a family. I see no motive behind them. Not a single of pretense. Not like any other people who see us from a different angle when we first stepped into this piece of land. Though I admited that I had never like the place when I first came, but it was them who changed my whole perception of the people here. And yes, the whole finance department people are so nice that they could be the reason for me to extend my stay here.

And now, I'm leaving soon. Waiting for the time to come where things will all be back in place or probably back to square one ... I reflected on what I had done throughout this whole period of 11 weeks in the company and of course, my days with the 3 other interns.

Since the day I had decided to fly here, it ain't that easy as I thought it would be. Be it people, surrounding or probably unexpected issues and events ... they are never within my control. Many times, I cried over the phone when it could only be a minor issue. I had seen and learnt the tactics of even playing with mind games. Not really to the the extend of playing with people relationship. But I certainly feel that the phrase, "Never judge a book by its cover" is so true that I started to be more aware. Being oblivious can really kills. And I guess the flexibility of the character is important. Reason being, I'm so used to being around people who got almost the same frequency and thinking as me that I become too comfortable. I used the same method of treating and talking to peope everywhere I go. And yes, I guess I encountered quite a few who I know I can't communicate with my usual way.

Sometimes I thought of giving up on these people who obviously do not belong to "my category" cause they are too tiring too handle. But what can I do if were to be put together with them one day? Just like how you can't choose your working colleagues. I got no choice but to adapt and be more flexible, I guess.

Continued- I guess there's a breakdown. I couldn't continue thinking along the line after my dinner. Anyway, the thought of having just 8 more days of work scares me. I will miss them as much as anything else.

Till next time.